First of all I would like to apologize as Blogger seems to be chewing up your comments )and my responses) - I have received them.But the point to all this is as Ms. J and I have been going through our trying moments as of late, a vision I had a year ago or so keeps coming back to mind. Now this isn't a vision of the future or whatever they show you on TV. It was a moment on the T as I was working through "What Colour is Your Parachute" (a really good book actually), there was a lesson/action, where you just let everything be, all rational etc and so on and see what happens. What happened was actually something that made me mad. So if we're going on the fairytale in the sky dreams, this was not one of those really. It was a moment where I said, Really? You've got to be joking that that's what you see for my future. I grieved it to be honest. Fast forward a year and that vision is a beautiful thing.
What was it?
It was a house, heritage-esqe full of books, comfy furniture and people - full of people (and I'm not really a people person). It was a home full of life, like the house was one big communal hug and I was teaching. It was my home/house. So here's the bigger confession, the blog is titled single and picky - no I'm not secretly married, I am single. But well I don't always, actually more often then not, see myself with anyone. I see myself in that house, with a garden and flowers everywhere, walls of books, a table full of cups of half consumed tea and coffee and crumbs, and children. I see myself as a mom, but I don't see myself as a wife. Some might argue that's a problem, that's why I'm single. It could be, but I don't think it is. So yes we get to add this vision and the mulling to all the tears and growing pains that are happening in the S&P world. No worries folks, it's all good, growing is tough shit and as John Mayer tweeted today life is best lived without the epidural, so on that note bring on the tea, the gluten free cookies and good friends.
Houseful of books, tea, cookies, children...sounds like you're the Oracle from The Matrix =).
ReplyDeleteFunny, I haven't seen the movie, to violent for me (the parts I've seen)
ReplyDeleteToo violent? This, coming from Hockey Fan #1. I would think that after all you've seen in the ice rink (checks and broken teeth/noses/faces), that a little movie violence would be small potatoes for the likes of you ;-)
ReplyDeleteIt's the guns etc - hockey while it's violent, is dare I say not intentionally so. I was raised without violent cartoons and no guns, not even water guns, so it's violent to me - blood and guts and all that isn't my favorite. Had my eyes closed for most of the Lord of the Rings trilogy.
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