AB is accompanying me to AL's party (NOTE: this is not a date, before I get yelled at - we were both invited and since AL has to pick us up from the T, we decided to make it easy for him and take the T together). Yep, the first time I am seeing AB in almost 4 months and maybe that is why this whole party is getting me all a fluster, I'm not sure. Now let me be clear this is no attempt at seducing him, he will not be invited to come home with me, I promise to do my best to keep my hands to myself, mingle around and in general not act like I still love the man bitterly and stubbornly.
Ah I feel better now that I've come clean with that.
Oh and I also promise to pass over the gin. That I must solemnly swear... or there will be big time heart ache and a man that I will be kicking out of my bed.
I hope this won't become one of those "I told you so" comments. Good luck. You'll need it.
ReplyDeleteGoodness it better not be one of those I told you so type of nights. To be honest it's more the issue of how I can keep my shit together - that whole, calm cool collected knowing that he doesn't want us, and yet somewhere still alive in the back of my brain/heart is that stupid Kelly Clarkson line - all I ever wanted is you. I was saying to N this morning I think that's what really has me flustered. We have a 45minute T ride each way to this party plus the party and I think it may just all unhinge me slowly from the inside out....
ReplyDeleteTOITB - you said it exactly.
ReplyDelete@singleandpicky - one word:
KRYPTONITE.