I started school today, I quit work on Friday and X and I are no longer a couple. And I all I want in all this change is him. He is an amazing, sweet, smart, handsome, talented, funny and gentle yet strong man. A man I am crazy about and I know I will always be to some extent or another - there aren't a lot of great men in this world. He even bought me amazing jewelry I will cherish with no hints whatsoever. So why? Why didn't I jump on the next plane? I cannot bend time and space - we are in different time zones, different countries and different life journeys and we could go on living with 5 minutes of bbm and the occasional Skype date as the glue, but the glue I really need more than anything is knowing in the nights I have anxiety and nigh terrors that I can cling to him and not my cold blackberry. If I could have I would have bent everything imaginable for this man - but maybe for us that just isn't enough.
They are right - I just wish I could have held on longer.
awww I'm sorry love. Calling you xo
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ReplyDeleteThanks dear - you did good in setting us up. I love him to bits, but that isn't enough right now, or maybe ever. But he does give me hope there are good ones left in the sea.
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