Chemistry used to baffle me - not the science - that I was completely down with. When I look back at the men in my life I find that interpersonal chemistry is nothing like the science. You cannot combine two elements which you know should react and think you'll get a reaction - Sodium and Water do not a reaction make when it is people we are talking about and inert gases are apparently no longer stable.
I remember this clearly after my date with MW - he said quite plainly - he didn't feel a spark. If I had been honest nor did I. But the suggestion that a spark was more important than getting to know me hurt. I've come to realize that is not what he meant at all.
I had no chemistry with CEF - one more freaking thing that was wrong, so very wrong with that relationship. But moving on. I had sexual chemistry with BI to the likes I don't know if there will be again - but we were not by any means meant to be. I didn't have chemistry with OM, BV or a whole lot of the others until AB. That threw me for a loop. I remember standing at Miss 60's party and wanting to pinch myself - wondering what was going on - there was something about him - something I hadn't known in my life. Oddly I had that this past week and it reminded me that as much as I have had my stuck moments with AB - that there are others out there that will make me feel like it just fits, like it is someone who I could talk with for hours etc. Which is why I just keep plodding on, chemistry can happen in surprising places, maybe it is like inorganic chemistry - you just have to keep mixing until you discover something new and beautiful - like a cobalt compound (cobalt chromium blue).
