Lost you? Well I might lose you further but let me try and explain what my lovely roommate pointed out to me this morning. Her point being I am not a young woman, I am quite frankly very different than the women RB or his best friend would have regular contact with (RB is 26 and his bf 23). They're used to emotionally overwrought young women, and Christian (Evangelical) circles, young women are frankly, crazy. They are crazy for a million stupid social reasons that Christian thought causes but one of the chief hallmarks is the obsessive. One kind of liking that happens is where they find a man they think fits "their list" and then fill in the rest with their own fantasies. The young men can do this too and so it makes for a hell of a lot of angst going down. So as my roommate pointed out what I did was beyond their comprehension. I declared attraction and in doing so, one asserted myself, and two by doing so in their minds professed a life altering desire to be in a relationship with RB when really I just thought things were getting stupid and I wanted to see if a date would work to clear things on whether we had anything. A date, not destiny fulfilled is what I was asking for, and it is this disconnect that may have caused all the craziness.
They think I should be coming unhinged and don't know why I wouldn't be. Well I'm not, in case anyone is wondering, definitely not. That and apparently I can look really evil when I'm doing my "poker face" (per HSBFF) which probably didn't help this week to deflate the situation. He thought I was probably out to actually boil his bunny and maybe take out his knee caps too while I was at it. Fear not all bunnies are safe.
