A Year Ago

I've spent a little of the free time I have... oh who am I kidding, it sure wasn't free time... thinking about what a difference a year makes.

I just have no words really.

A year ago I was about to be laid off, having regular panic attacks and feeling like I was constantly fighting with a person I didn't know, that I couldn't know.

And now?

Well I have a challenging job that I'm falling in love with, I have an amazing man I can be vulnerable with, and let me tell you, self doubt has been running rampant these past few months and he's held me through some really NLLL moments of that and the mess of all the stress and we laugh, frankly I cannot think of something better than a person who knows that what we both need more than a cuddle at the end of day is a tickle fight. I don't think I've laughed this much in a long time. A thinks we're just stupid as she'll often find me desperately trying to unhinge myself or use my feet, or anything to balance out the battle. It's good for the soul. Even better is it's good to be reminded of how awesome your friends are.

But on the note of last year, while I wouldn't do this because I don't think I'd be here without all that stupidity, I totally agree with this song