It's About Time You Know

This does signal a change of direction around here, what things look like from here on we'll see, but for now... now you know.

A Year Ago

I've spent a little of the free time I have... oh who am I kidding, it sure wasn't free time... thinking about what a difference a year makes.

I just have no words really.

A year ago I was about to be laid off, having regular panic attacks and feeling like I was constantly fighting with a person I didn't know, that I couldn't know.

And now?

Well I have a challenging job that I'm falling in love with, I have an amazing man I can be vulnerable with, and let me tell you, self doubt has been running rampant these past few months and he's held me through some really NLLL moments of that and the mess of all the stress and we laugh, frankly I cannot think of something better than a person who knows that what we both need more than a cuddle at the end of day is a tickle fight. I don't think I've laughed this much in a long time. A thinks we're just stupid as she'll often find me desperately trying to unhinge myself or use my feet, or anything to balance out the battle. It's good for the soul. Even better is it's good to be reminded of how awesome your friends are.

But on the note of last year, while I wouldn't do this because I don't think I'd be here without all that stupidity, I totally agree with this song

So if you haven't noticed, I'm busy...

I have a guilty pleasure love for Megan Trainor, mostly because like T-Swizzle she can write a hook. But this one while it's cute and perky it has the substance of a Kardashian novel.

Dear future husband,

Here's a few things

You'll need to know if you wanna be

My one and only all my life

Take me on a date

I deserve a bae

And don't forget the flowers every anniversary

'Cause if you'll treat me right

I'll be the perfect wife

Buying groceries

Buy-buying what you need

Okay, sure flowers aren't a bad thing, honestly I'd prefer them at other times in the year but go for it, as for groceries, well Brad and I currently split this and I like this - he even made, dare I say it, a better roast chicken than I make last night for dinner.

You got that 9 to 5

But, baby, so do I

So don't be thinking I'll be home and making apple pies

I never learned to cook

But I can fader hook

Sing along with me

Sing-sing along with me (hey)

I like to cook and I make a damn good pie and for the record I don't think you're any better or worse a partner if you can or cannot cook/bake nor do I think it's limited to one person in the relationship.

You gotta know how to treat me like a lady

Even when I'm acting crazy

Tell me everything's alright

DO NOT placate me. If I am in the throws of an existential crisis, listen to me, hold me and if I need help you cannot offer then help me get it, don't just say tut tut dear.

Dear future husband,

Here's a few things you'll need to know if you wanna be

My one and only all my life

Dear future husband,

If you wanna get that special lovin'

Tell me I'm beautiful each and every night

Yes this is nice but I don't want to be told I'm beautiful just because you're horny

After every fight

Just apologize

And maybe then I'll let you try and rock my body right

Even if I was wrong

You know I'm never wrong

Why disagree?

Why, why disagree?

UGH, seriously, I can be wrong, I often am wrong, don't just roll over because you're horny and or you want me to shut up, seriously, I'm an adult, treat me like it.

You gotta know how to treat me like a lady

Even when I'm acting crazy

Tell me everything's alright

Dear future husband,

Here's a few things

You'll need to know if you wanna be

My one and only all my life (hey, baby)

Dear future husband,

Make time for me

Don't leave me lonely

And know we'll never see your family more than mine

I can function on my own and PLEASE I do not want to spend more time with my family.

I'll be sleeping on the left side of the bed (hey)

Open doors for me and you might get some kisses

Don't have a dirty mind

Just be a classy guy

Buy me a ring

Buy-buy me a ring, (babe)

You gotta know how to treat me like a lady

Even when I'm acting crazy

Tell me everything's alright

Dear future husband,

Here's a few things

You'll need to know if you wanna be

My one and only all my life

Dear future husband,

If you wanna get that special loving

Tell me I'm beautiful each and every night

Future husband, better love me right