First, I want to apologize for being slow and sporadic at posting - for these past few weekends I blame my marathon (yes I did actually run the Portland Marathon this past weekend) and my usual nemesis grad school.
Second, I am likely to be sporadic with the posting in the future because within the next month I hope to have my new blog up and running. I will be very different in content from here so fear not there will be continued life/dating updates that I would like to work through in this less public venue. And yes once it is up and running you will all know about it.
Third, KAB has suggested we keep Mr Supersmart on the list of potentials and not her list but mine... I've decided that the maybe list can have some occupants - how they get on to the yes list, well that's a little more complicated and I don't know if I have the mental space for that right now.
Fourth, I am returning to the town where CEF used to live, where all the drama when down over 4 years ago. WTFOMG I am sure is one of the questions/exclamations going off in your head right now. Well for one he lives on the opposite of the country now - so I have a few states of buffer, and two I think the time has come that I close the parts of that journey and open myself up again. I don't foresee myself getting married any time soon, as it would require a willing man, I do know that there are questions in the back of my brain about getting that close to the isle and then going the complete opposite, is it a journey I can do now even healthy. I need to know that I am a different person, because there are definitely days where regardless of the years of having my head examined and sitting with the messes and the pain, I still wonder if I am the same completely broken woman who is going to make the same mistake. I know conceptually I am not, I know X was a good relationship/is a good man, but I still think I need to own the whole CEF things to the degree I can. Don't worry I'm not going to go crazy and hunt him down to apologize - to be honest I am breathing a massive sigh of relief that the school email I used to have will be closed down this month - no more contact loose ends.
Fifth, I ran the marathon with my family (PU and Sibling) and not that that matters - crossed the line and this guy who we basically ran with the whole marathon congratulated me - he was so cute and being that I was low on necessary brain sugar for flirting, just smiled and said thanks. Damn it brain, you'd think there would be a special reserve for essential life functions. So being random I checked out CL for a missed connection. Who knows maybe we did have enough of a connection and I can't remember it.
Well we didn't but this guy did and I wanted to post it purely for the line I bolded below:
"I know this is a long shot- with 6000+ runners, but I thought I would take a shot anyhow!
You- brown hair, green tan tank top, sunglasses and black skirt,
probably around 30ish? You passed me going up the hill to the bridge.
You made miles 17-24 much easier because of the amazing view I had
running behind you ; ) How do you look gorgeous while running a
marathon. I wish I had looked at your bib to get your name. Lost you
at mile 25ish as leg cramps came rolling in for me. Guessing on your
pace you were under a 3:45??? Damn girl.
Me- 6'2, gray shirt and black shorts, short hair, and unfortunately,
disgustingly sweaty while dreaming of the girl running in front of me.
Last mile hopping and skipping like an idiot, glad had left me in the
dust so I didn't have to act suave as my calfs seized up. Oh well- I
finished under four hours- so can't complain too much.
You kicked ass (mine included). I would love to run with you sometime
(or even just behind you again) and then get some drinks : ) Hope to
hear from you."
Sure there are some ass comments, but I completely get that considering there isn't much else to look at - calves, backs and asses are about it - but that aside - I must confess I like a man who is okay with acknowledging he's been beaten and being humorous about it.
So that's about it.
